Category Archives: Courage, difficult emotions & death in every moment

I stopped writing at fifty

I stopped writing at fifty. It seemed I had nothing more to say. Me! Who always had an opinion, could give lectures about the state of anything with confidence. Especially to my children. Had no more words. Nothing. Empty. The … Continue reading

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Watershed year!

What a year it has been.  A year of much water flowing, cascading, sometimes even bucketing down.  Perhaps even a watershed year.  Many tears shed, much pain experienced.  Lots of laughter, joy, and love too.  Many bridges built and crossed, … Continue reading

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What’s your edge?

Edges A common metaphor used in our everyday language. ‘What’s your edge?’ ‘I’m on the edge?’ ‘Jumping off the edge.’  ‘Going over the edge.’ ‘Finding my way back from the edge.’ We have all kinds of edges. Learning edges. Comfort … Continue reading

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Know your beasts

“To ‘listen’ another soul into a condition of disclosure may be almost the greatest service that any human being ever performed for another.”  Steere   Know the beast, name the beast, learn to have some tea together.  This is something … Continue reading

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Hiding in the corners

Circles and squares, shapes without any corners and shapes with many, have been dancing themselves through my mind’s eye these past days and weeks.  Finding myself noticing themes in nature and in human nature that play themselves out with or … Continue reading

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Livid and the colour grey

That morning, an encounter, that will long be seared into the wrinkling folds of my brain.  I was running late, knowing they would be waiting.  A teenager and his family, cared for by our team over the past weeks, my … Continue reading

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Close up and intimate

Being deeply loved… gives you strength, loving deeply gives you courage. Lao Tzu   Those of us who work in the field of paediatric palliative medicine often have the experience that children with terminal illness, close to death, wait for … Continue reading

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When the Other shows up

At times I wonder at and am disturbed deeply by our human capacity to not care for each other in this world of ours.  I marvel at our ability, as carers, to disengage our empathy monitor and seemingly able to … Continue reading

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Vast ocean of I don’t know

When I embarked on this journey of befriending the world of I don’t know I had no idea how deep or vast this ocean would be.  If I had known, that after more than ten years (well, maybe a life … Continue reading

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Trust in the difficult

So today these are definitely just musings.  Musings of something I have little experience with other than my personal, and cannot give any specific advice about. I am just musing about that which is here.  For me.  Right now.  I … Continue reading

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